So I'm on my second week of unemployment. So far I've gotten a pretty positive response from people. One of the things that I was most concerned with (its pretty lame actually) was what I'm going to tell people. The reason being, and I think this is with most anywhere you go in the US, one of the first things you ask a person when meeting them, after getting their name is, what do you do? Which I think is such a dumb question to begin with (going back to what I've said in previous blogs) because why do we define ourselves by 1)Our name 2) Where we are from 3) What we do for a job. I understand that these are the easiest questions to ask of a person, but I don't think that by any means, my name, where I'm from, or what I've done for jobs is in any way a reflection of who I am. Hi, I'm Aly, from Maine, that used to Professional Development. All those things together, you have NOT A CLUE who I am. I'm nothing like that person that I just described. So since I cannot change society and how we introduce ourselves, I am nervous to meet people now that I quit my job. WHY! I'm actually a bit ashamed that I have to say, oh hey, i don't work. But what I'm really mad about it that I'm ashamed that I'm ashamed of that. I should be happy and proud that I made the decision to leave a job that I hate. So why am I ashamed of that?
Anyway, enough with my rant about that. It's just that this not having a job thing is starting to stress me out in a way. Not in a way that I want to be stressed out. I told myself I wouldn't get like this, that I wouldn't let society pressure me into being stressed out. Perhaps it's the loneliness that is getting to me. That's one of the things that I didn't anticipate to effect me so quickly, but alas it's only been a week, but it feels longer than that. I am still waiting for the weekends to come even though I'm not even working. A good friend of mine is leaving her job for a new one and she's going to take some time off, and I'm super excited about that so she can hang out with me for the short time that she doesn't have a job too!
So some random thoughts that I've had the last couple of weeks:
Why do we lean when we go around corners in the car? Shifting my weight in the car will have absolutely no affect on how the car will turn. it's not a bicycle.
When I walk into an exercise class and the instructor seems to be in worse shape/not the body I'm striving for, I'm immediately dejected.
Don't look in the cupboard again, it's all gonna be the same shit you saw when you looked 2 minutes ago. Just go to Chipotle.
Sometimes I'll make myself dinner and it kinda takes a while, so I snack and taste things while I'm cooking, when it's finally finished I'm not even hungry anymore.
I always think that my facebook albums are the funniest and most intersteing pictures, until I look at other peoples and realize they are all the same, just insert a different drunk person.
I was so hungover the other day that I watched the Spanish Channel for five minutes without realizing it.
Why do the only guys that ask me out are only guys that I would never date?
Goodwill is only crowded the week before Halloween.
When I see a beautiful person, I immediately like to assume that I'm smarter then them.
So things that I'm thankful for today;
Good friend to tell me everything will be okay.
Delicious meal at Busboys and Poets
Fun events to look forward to
Got my purse back with everything in it
Lovely people who return purses!
Found good music online today
Cleaner room
Good weather
Good run
Funny TV
Great blogs!
Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!
Picture of the Day from National Geographic:
Oh just gorgeous! I love it. I can't wait to get a new camera that takes beautiful photos like this one.
